Numbers Say I Should Be Gone by Now

In this suburban coffin
Today I got to look back and the choices I made
The sidewalks I’ve been walking through, turned to be me
Everything changed but I can still see my reasons, which changed,
but simply didn’t die
Today, I’m broke, and the weight is crashing down on me
So I know I have the chance to still see what I was and who I got to be
Addictions and apathy
Fears and damnation
I don’t have any fear of falling
Choices I made one day, they do reflect what I am today
This day is the first day
Today is the day