Sojourn

Left in the middle,
Left in between a dream.
This nightmare is on my lips now.
I didn’t want you to surrender,
I didn’t want you to die;
Outstretch your arms for me and commit this suicide.
Why did you love us enough to leave us?
Pants.
I wanted you to stay.
Now I’m left in the middle,
Come back to me.
Now that you’re gone I’m starting to forget who I am.
I don’t belong in the pages of your notes.
And now that you’re gone I can see the gap so clear and I’m starting to realize…
I am Barabbas,
I am the criminal.
Hang me from the tree.
I deserve the death that you died,
I am far from worthy.
I am Thomas,
I feel my doubt constrict,
I am too blind to see.
Show me the holes in your hands,
I believe,
help my unbelief.
Come back to me.
Now I’m starting to forget and I’m growing weary.
How did you pronounce love and how did you weep?
I don’t know when you’re coming back,
All I know has gone away.
Restore all those memories and please return to this place.
Can you make sense of this?
Cause I’m still filled with questions.
Would you come back to me and help me sort through the madness?
Pull apart every doubt that remains.
Lay it out clear as day so I don’t forget your name.
I am, I just need to hear it.
I am, scream it out;
Let it resonate.
I wanted more time to tell you I love you.
I wanted more time,
I wanted more.
Let heaven meet earth.
Come back to me and bring me home.