It Was All a Bet

This pavement, thicker in the winter
If my head would move just a little quicker
I could tell you straight why I am so bitter
I feel so alone
I paid the price, stupid 'cause I’m honest
And I took your word, dying to be wanted
I would do it twice just so, in the moment
I’d feel so alive
Oh, I’m breaking down in the daylight baby
And I’m waking up in the dark
I’m taking up all the oxygen
And I’m starving all of my thoughts
'Cause I don’t wanna remember waiting
Like a fool outside of your car
And I’ll spend every September asking
«Did you plan it all from the start?»
Is anybody out there?
Is anybody watching over me?
Is anybody out there?
Is anybody watching over me?
One by one, picking up the pieces
As the record spins, slowly through the seasons
Every day begins wishing for the reason
I feel so alone
So I keep marching, braver than a soldier
And I keep fighting, hoping when I’m older
It will fade with time, nothing left to shoulder
I feel so alive
Oh, I’m breaking down in the daylight baby
And I’m waking up in the dark
I’m using up all the oxygen
And I’m starving all of my thoughts
'Cause I don’t wanna remember waiting
Like a fool outside of your car
And I’ll spend every September asking
«Did you plan it all at the start?»
Is anybody out there?
Is anybody watching over me?
Is anybody out there?
Does everybody what it means?