Ten Letter Word

Wrote out our history in chalk on the sidewalk
For miles it lined these gray city blocks
And down came the rain again to wash it all away
Are we so sadly fated?
Sweater and coat hung from my shoulders
I dug through the snow to read your reply
Now I’ve been sleeping sober and I feel twenty years older
Where did all of our time go?
Is it one of her regrets
The nights we spent drinking vodka and smoking cigarettes?
Can I ever get it back
The feeling that I have found everything that I lack?
I want to love you out loud
And chisel out a future in the sidewalk you turned down
But it seems my winter storms drag on forever
So how can I blame her for keeping warm?