Gay Little Heart

I got a gay little brain and a gay little heart
I got a shitty guitar where i play songs, call it art
I am dumb in my brain i was dropped as a child
Not by my parents but by the gods
I see a girl on the bus wearing dragon ball socks
And i look like an asshole as i fall in love
Maybe 5 minutes pass before its her stop
And she smiles at me before she slowly walks off
Self induced heart attack from projecting my shit
Onto a stranger who probably thinks
Im a weirdo as i sit and stare at her socks
She was smiling politely because i looked dumb
Got a gay need for love and its gross and amazing
Ever since i was a kid i always found it overrated
I hat other people yt can’t live without them
Is that normal? is that a problem?
Never understood flirting never really got the gist
Seeing people putting cherry stems into their mouths and shit
As a kid i never saw someone like me on television
Only people who were straight and seemed to really enjoy kissing
I feel alien enough almost alien too much
I am shy and reserved and barf from others touch
Earth girls are easy as an alien man said
I just laughed and said: then you haven’t tried to be gay!
Its not too easy to be weird and sad
And also a hopeless romantic who hates
Things that are romantic and other people yet
Nothing will top how much i hate myself
Still if ur up for it come take a walk with me
We can go thrifting and eat something i will be
Awkward and shaky ill try not to die
Can’t promise anything i hope thats alright
I got a gay little brain and a gay little heart
I got a shitty guitar where i play songs call it art
Got a gay little gut that confuses love
With the human needs connection and distraction
But love is just a chemical reaction after all
So fuck these awkward interactions
Id rather live in solitude than face the things i probably should