Good Intentions

Lost in the lust and pull of the desires of my eyes
It starts a fire in my skin
And burns it’s way into my heart
This sin tore us apart
And now it’s too late to go back
Cause I lost track of all the love that I said we shared
It’s like smoke and mirrors
I don’t know my heart
I don’t know my plans
Everything has fallen apart
God save this wretched man
I have fallen apart and I can’t free myself
I can’t let go
I have fallen apart and I can’t free myself
Who will save me now?
There must be something wrong with me
Every time I try it’s like I’m digging my own grave
It’s like there’s poison in my veins
Every time I think I’m getting closer to break through
I make the same mistakes
I’ve been chasing the wind
I’ve been playing god
Replaced these gifts with efforts
How did I end up like this?
I used to be passionate
I used to have conviction flowing through my veins
I used to be in love with you
God, you must be so disappointed in me
My knuckles are callused and stained with your blood
God save this wretched man
I must have worn out your patience by now
This has become my hell
I swear to God something is wrong with me
Cause I can’t breath; feels like I’m suffocating
I know it’s not just the snake around my neck
But these hands that pushed the nails into your flesh
God these hands have pulled the apple from the tree
And I’ve been striving for atonement but it’s just out of reach
This whole time I thought I was living in your name
Hands to the plow? I was digging my own grave
I’ve been trying, I’ve been trying to somehow earn your grace
I’ve been lying, I’ve been lying; wearing masks to hide my face
I’ve been thinking to myself, does this cycle ever end?
I’ve been falling short and burning out; your patience must be thin
Have I worn out your patience yet?