A Girl's Name

I remember the scent of autumn
And summer’s endless days
But December beats all of them
Though spring’s a close second place
But these days something feels so strange
The change of the seasons don’t hold the same meaning
I’ve been so fixated on trying to make it
I haven’t looked up to see the time that it’s taken
I’m in such a haze I heard someone say the word summer
And I thought it was a girl’s name
And I thought it was a girl’s name
Time does not last as long as it used to
I watch the weeks turn into years
When I look back on all we went through
I just can’t hold back the tears
Because these days something feels so strange
Our change in relation’s got me contemplating
As the days get warmer, it feels like torture
It’s bringing me back when I need to move forward
Oh it’s such a shame, when I heard someone say the word summer
All I thought of was a girl’s name
These expectations had friends in me
They said let’s go explore
But sometimes friends turn into enemies
And now I’m not excited anymore
Because these days something feels so strange
All this confusion, it’s just an illusion
Oh it’s just a prank pulled on me by my brain
I will be fine in just a few month’s time
But as of today when I hear someone say the word summer
All I’m hearing is a girl’s name