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Praying for myself
These thoughts I try to hide
I have faith in me and hope this will survive
But it’s tearing me apart
I can’t hear the words by which I guide
So I must ask again, who will carry me?
I cannot deny, nothing can defend
From the helplessness that’s cutting deep inside
And I can’t prevent the thought that nothing’s real
It seems I’m waiting years for this day to end
The strength I need to feel, the pride inside of me
Are not there behind the face that’s staring back at me
The anger and the pain of knowing where I am
I have come so far and I cannot return
Nothing I can do that I have not done
No words I can say, no truth left that I can see
So must I let this end and everything fall apart
Before I live my life as I have always done?
Tell me what to do so I do nothing wrong
Something I can hope for, something real that I can see
So nothing falls apart, so this does not end
I cannot return, I can’t start again
Nothing to deny, nothing to defend
From the helplessness that’s cutting me so deep inside
And I can’t prevent the thought that nothing’s real
It seems I’m waiting years for this day to end
Praying for myself
These thoughts I try to hide
I have faith in me and hope this will survive
But it’s tearing me apart
I can’t hear the words by which I guide
So I must ask again, who will carry me?
Nothing I can do that I have not done
No words I can say, no truth left that I can see
So must I let this end and everything fall apart
Before I live my life as I have always done?
Tell me what to do so I do nothing wrong
Something I can hope for, something real that I can see
So nothing falls apart, so this does not end
I cannot return, I can’t start again
Nothing I can do that I have not done
No words I can say, no truth left that I can see
So must I let this end and everything fall apart
Before I live my life as I have always done?
Tell me what to do so I do nothing wrong
Something I can hope for, something real that I can see
So nothing falls apart, so this does not end
I cannot return, I can’t start again