Klonopin

The snow outside
The pill I take to hide from life:
The way it blankets my mind
It’s hard to describe
With slowing heartbeat
The way it erases what’s beneath
The way it thaws slowly
Revealing
Muddy human shape imprinted: shame
Musty leaves and sadness
Blame
My self-imposed detachment:
Internal passion, eternal absence
With slowing heartbeat
Erasing the self beneath
When it thaws slowly
Is that me?
I look down wistfully
Stumble around aimlessly
Nothings found in daylight
It dims, I cover myself
«Again, alive.»
«It snows every night.»