Now and Again

Would you like to be the one
Would you like to be renowned?
A silent rage can pave the way
Can keep the coldness in your eyes
Weak and chased into the light
And just a heartless smile away
They all believe in what I seem to be
So I must keep this face alive
This is a world of anger and hate
We dream of heaven but we live in hell
Now and again — now the feeling is over again — with a lie
You can always pretend it’s alright and fine
Could you help me to fight when danger is high?
When my honesty fades away
Who’s afraid to be alive again?
What in me — what is deep in my mind?
What if the danger makes me feel I could die?
Still in my head what makes be this way
And what can ease the blame inside
Too much hate too many oppositions
But the order was to win somehow
I believe there is a place to be
People get along without a trace of baseness
This is a world of anger and hate
We put our faith in hell’s array
We dream of heaven but we live in hell
Now the feeling is over again — though I try
Could you help me to find my way out of the ice
That has frozen the dream of a warm summer night
Can I offer myself to you?
I believe that I can learn to feel
What is in me — what’s behind my eyes?
Is it a dream within a lost paradise?
If I could feel — if I could feel ashamed
I lose my faith within a thousand lies
All my life could be the final lie…