My Body in Bloom

And once cut, you will be free from dirt, but you will not be clean
And you will be free from soil, but you will remain soiled
Soiled in a way that water cannot wash, and cut in a way that cannot heal
This is who you are now, forever
I’m my own disappointment
Somewhere between where and I am and where I need to be
Nothing will ever be good enough, turn all that I love to ashes and dust
Don’t want to be remembered
Let me live and die in isolation as nature intended
My body in bloom
What the fuck do I do
When I’ve achieved nothing and feel like I’m outliving my use
Ticking clock on my life and youth
Prisoner to all my expectations and all that I’ve gone through
It is what it is, I’m not special just fucking different
And all my emotions are too inconsistent
This is who I am
This is what I’ve grown into
Underneath my skins is running out of room
My body in bloom