Its Not the Same

I am the first to know
when everything is wrong
she is the last to know
and then I’m gone
I’m sorry I never say I am
I was the first to know
that everyone was gone
it hurts the worst to know
you don’t belong
I only wanna be a part of you
Calling waiting breathing
falling never sleeping
I’m in love with all your pain
I lost my mind today
but please believe me I will be here freely
and I will not be ignored
its not bad anymore
I am the only one
as far as I’m concerned
its not the things you’ve done
but what you have not learned
it feels like I should hide you from the world
was he different than me?
did he ask you to sing so frequently when
you first met?
did he control you with things?
make you believe that you were
always to blame?
is that why you treat me the same?