Trying

Whether you float
Whether you fall
Whether you come to light or come back to me at all
If you can walk you can crawl
My skin feels rough
I run away from the ones that I love
Hope that they’ll stay and confirm what I was
Something better than this
And I grow tired of chasing friends in this city
I grow cold of feeling old in my twenties
How do you let go?
When you’re on your own
Words cutting
Why are you always giving up on me
Can’t you see I’m trying
Can’t you see I’m trying
I know the weight of it all
I’ve felt it before
First when I was sixteen and got drunk at a mall
Thought all these happy people
I can never be like them all
And ven when I am it doesn’t feel right
Dosn’t feel right at all
I’ve grown tired of erasing myself in this city
I’ve grown old just chasing love in my twenties
Why are you always taking it out on me?
Can’t you see I’m trying
Can’t you see I’m not lying
All of your secrets
They hold a place in my heart
I will not tell them I write them all on my walls
I fear my anger
You bring it out in me
I want to be the cure
I want to be the relief
Why are you always giving up on me
Can’t you see I’m trying
I’m trying, I’m trying
Can’t you see I’m trying
I’m trying, I’m trying