in the middle of a car crash

Gave in again, now it’s feelin' like my fault
Take what you can, splattered brains on the asphalt
Hate me when you want, I don’t really give a fuck now
Say she wanna die, bitch, know I’ve already shutdown
Know I’m not that far but this distance fucking kills me
I can never sleep at night when I’m just pretending
That I’m happy, wanna crash shit
Feelin' isolated like I’m wrapped in plastic
Can I ever get my fuckin balance?
And I wanna see you when the world ends
Felt too much, I fucked up, no purpose
Sittin' in my bed, thinking how it could be perfect
Broken down nervous, takin' off my nerv ends
Fuckin' kill me if you really think it’s worth it