Time Lapse

I AM
I am afraid of me of all the mistakes I’ve made that I cannot fix
I FEEL
I feel alone in these walls I’ve constructed from my guilt
IT’S NOT ME
I’m not who I’ve let down
I should have seen it from the start, but I never learned
WHAT TO SAY
How to ask of you to forgive me for the poison, this cancer eating me
Please forgive me for all i have done
Please forgive me my friend
I thought that I was stronger than this
I’m stuck in my head, thinking over everything I’ve done
I fucked up, I let you down
I don’t deserve, any of this
I am the architect of my own destruction
All these things that I’ve done replay through my mind
I’m drowning in regret living life out in the deep end
If I could turn back time to where it all unfolds
The only thing I’d do, is save myself
I am the architect of my own destruction