Pain

I just got off the phone with mama ooo she don’t approve of my ways
I just got off the phone with baby mama damn she was so violent
Dad keep telling me he got my back
I don’t trust nobody, there’s even times i don’t trust myself
Tired of fighting, emotions down they deep in the dirt and
I’ve had suicidal thoughts but i keep dreaming of suicidal doors
Turn to the bible when i feel i’m not on course and
To my daughter they gone tell you i was never on course
I ain’t going to lie, I been trying to better myself for you and
When i’m gone don’t be sad i swear the gang is there for you
I put tears in my mama eyes
I’ve had different arguments that even turned to fights
Turn on the lights mama said, the devil trying to snatch your soul
Praying to God every night, if i die you take my soul
I’ve done bad in the past, I’ve never ever pleased my folks
While my cousins got engaged i had a B*&# like Amber Rose
When she mentioned get engaged i had to slide out andale
Baby mama on my case
Talking about she go’n catch a case
I’ve had stress for a while i’m double cuppin up my pain
Shout out to the squad oo yeah
They been with me through the rain
Got a girl that call me Shuga, Jowa Liv he call me Chuga, Pablo The God he
call me Eighty, Lexiana my sister baby
Ah
Not with blood but you get the picture
Heart is Ice Cold I’ll keep doing me
VERSE 2 TENTHOUSANDX
I know i lost my ways
Went a different lane
Fell into a gang
But before i lay my head oo i sing a prayer
For the wrong I’ve done
For the ones I’ve hurt
Especially mama cause i know i’m not the son she want
But i love you mama
I swear one day you gone see that my failures have been successes
Chugi baby mama out here stressing you
I don’t care about her, all i care about is your daughter cause she like my
little sister
OUTRO (SQUAD SKIT)