never was mine

Strange how we can become stranger still
Watching from afar the loving kill
Hurts to see you leave, wrapped in their arms
Hurts to watch my love mean nothing
More than I can take
Makes me reel around, it chills me
Nothing hurts the same
As a loving heart when lost
Can’t be bothered
Can’t be kept from my mind
Loving’s harder when it doesn’t align
I wish my mind wouldn’t run free
Loving’s hard enough for me
But it’s so much harder when it never was mine
Loss, feeding on my love, hungers more
Tearing at my heart, it runs its course
Slipping through the dark, a fiend in the night
But whatever I wished, came sorrow
Honor in the name
Of the ones who brave this heartache
But its not my fate
Written out across the stars
Can’t be bothered
Can’t be kept from my mind
Loving’s harder when it doesn’t align
I wish my mind wouldn’t run free
Loving’s hard enough for me
But it’s so much harder when it never was mine
I wasn’t asking for the sunlight
To come down for me
I wasn’t looking for the world to
Lay it at my feet
But as it did
And as it is
I couldn’t leave it be
(I couldn’t leave it be
I couldn’t leave it be)
Can’t be bothered
Can’t be kept from my mind
Loving’s harder when it doesn’t align
I wish my mind wouldn’t run free
Loving’s hard enough for me
But it’s so much harder when it never was mine