Hell

Do you notice when I pretend to sleep while I stain the pillowcase?
And try not to sob into your shoulder blades?
I know these last warm nights with you should not exist
But I cling to every one of them anyway
Don’t say goodbye, don’t say it’s over now
Beside your side of our bed, I reach out for space instead
I’ve found hell in the form of an empty house
But I plan to visit you often each time I shut my eyes now
I want to crawl into your arms and stay for my whole life
Is this what it feels like to mean nothing to someone who means everything?
I wish that you could look at me the way you’re looking at that screen
Instead of looking right through me
Don’t say goodbye, don’t say it’s over now
Beside your side of our bed, I reach out for space instead
I’ve found hell in the form of an empty house
But I plan to visit you often each time I shut my eyes now
I’ve found hell in the form of an empty house
Without you beside me