As Never Before

I’m quietly waiting
For long awaited death
No sisters of mercy
Nor fucking priest
Could give me a moment
Of silence and peace
Could give me a moment
Of relief
All these hypocrites
Morons with Juda’s face
No-one understands
How long they’ll stay
So profoundly certain
They are right
With every morphine breath
I can see more and more
Positive points of
Long awaited death
Happiness of ending existence
And immortality as punishment
Many years, many moments
I was waiting
My exhausted body
Personal fragments of life
Emotionally dead and alive
As never before… and free