Self-Deceiving Savior

Paradise seems closer than it is
I’ve devised unhealthy ways to live
It feels like I’m talking to myself because I am the only one I could ever tell
Before you know it I won’t care
Before you know it I won’t be there
Before you know it I won’t care
Before you know it I won’t be there
Eyes are wide and feeling dry
O my soul be free from why
I let myself fall from these heights
Mostly I think I just want to fly
Before you know it I won’t care
Before you know it I won’t be there
Before you know it I won’t care
Before you know it I won’t be there
I used to feel like I was part of a family
I wonder if I’ll feel that way again
I wonder if that’s what you think about me
Or am I just another long lost friend
I wonder if I’d feel this way
If I didn’t feel so lonely
I don’t think I could be this gray
And drag someone down with me
Oh my God, what have I become?
Thinking I could love this way, feeling so numb
Oh my God, what have I become?
Thinking I could love this way, feeling so numb