Backwards, Not Broken

I’m not allowed to say my heart breaks
With all the choices that you make
You know I always choose to stay
You say you’re trying to revive what you once knew
Like all the times where I would go into open waters with you
But you became this force
You walked all over everything around you
Got scared, then ran away
So please, understand if you want to scream
I’ll be the one hearing the echoes of you and me
And everything that we should be
And I’m still shaking, but I can’t get you out
It comes in waves and every night, I drown
Just know we’re backwards, not broken now
You’re not allowed to claim that my voice is your favorite sound
When you’ve been drowning me out
And the love you have for me is sitting there untouched
'Cause you’d rather be touched by her
So please, understand if you want to scream
I’ll be the one hearing the echoes of you and me
And everything that we should be
And I’m still shaking, but I can’t get you out
It comes in waves and every night, I drown
Just know we’re backwards, not broken now
I disappear everyday so you can breathe
Still, I think you know you’re the one that’s suffocating me
Unspoken understanding
The world won’t make sense if you’re not standing
Next to me
But you became this force
You walked all over everything around you
Got scared, then ran away
So please, understand if I need to scream
You’ll be the one hearing the echoes of you and me
And everything that we should be
And you’re still shaking, but you can’t get me out
It comes in waves and every night, you drown
Just know we’re backwards, not broken now