Bear Hugs

Today when I woke up I actually fell out of bed and hit my head
It felt like dying
Kinda wish that I was dead
I need a pretty girl with curly hair
Whose hobbies include
Putting up with me
I don’t know who I am. (!!!)
I hate writing my own name
Putting thoughts into action was never really my thing
It’s apathetic
No maybe it’s indifference
Pills are the culprit
And I’ve spoken all my life to shoot for the stars
And do whatever it is that makes you feel happy
But now I’ll settle for $ 7.25
Take smoke breaks, waste Obama’s time
Slowly start to bend
I might break
I don’t need people reminding me that things didn’t go as planned
I’m really fine
I know when summer comes I’ll be singing every night
So if I seem distant
Or kind of like a prick
Well that’s because I am
I’m almost always alone and it’s really, really cold
All my life decisions are under my volition;
I want someone who craves juxtaposition
Or bear hugs
Now I’m open for love
I have vices I gotta get rid of
I’d put 20 bucks you’re out drinking with your friends
(who you despise)
Or taking 100 photos to find the right light
(for instagram)
But if I had the money
Well, I already spent it
You and I both know that
And I hate how much you know about me