Sparing Autumn

I draw the perfect picture of what I think I should be.
Desire drags itself along the face of forgotten convictions
haunting me to let this plea speak for itself.
Angels see all that is said.
Know my heart, it’s all gone.
Fading so still, so quiet the breath of an angel above silence
…contact…I believe in this lamb given.
This sacrifice put forth.
I want to drown in your spirit, let it poor like the rains.
Give me a purpose
I’ve waited my whole life to fill space with something of forever.
You are forever.
When I found out you could instill joy into my heart.
When I found out the peace you promised me was real.
When I found out you could make my heart anew,
I left myself and went to die with you
this hope that lives in my heart forever.