Playing the Part

Temporize
I play a vicious game with time
Until it catches up, so I bide
This is how I survive
Rarely ever go out, indifferent and lazy
And tired as hell, there’s no point in believing
That I will get better somehow
Cause I’ve been so detached for a while
Why does it seem like I’m just playing the part?
Is this truly how I feel in my heart?
So I’ve resigned, stepped out of position
It’s not my time, don’t think it ever will be
I’ve gotten so good at hiding what shouldn’t be kept inside
This remains a recurring problem
And I’m to blame, but until I solve it
I can’t relax
Cause too many things fell off track
Can’t get them back
Why does it seem like I’m just playing the part?
Is this truly how I feel in my heart?
I keep my distance, avoid everyone
Cause it’s easy for me to withdraw
From everything that I’m invested in
Like I never connected at all