4Ls

My heart is disintegrating in a pool of hazy uncertainty
Pain and fear
I call for people and no one appears
It’s 4 am and I’ve never felt so alone
I just want it to stop
Laying at home calling my whole contact list for support but no one picks up
They say it’s lonely at the top but it’s gotta get better
Shit I’m lonely now at least at the top people pretend
Rather have a false friend than no friend
Rather play pretend with a person around for the ride
Have them maintain the hype
Pick me up when I’m down by distracting the emotion I hold down
All for the fame, money, and perks
For what it’s worth it’s a good exchange for the company
I just want some comforting
I just need some comforting
I just need someone to hold me when it’s tough as shit
My body’s weak and it’s cold but my heat is triggered inside when I start to
think
I’m drowning
In pain but they can’t see me sink
I think it’s because I laugh so much
Make their days brighter but I don’t smile as much
Make a joke to mask the truth I hide so much
When they get close I start to lie just watch
Welcome to the show but the season’s done
Shall I continue or just shut it down?
The ratings all went down as the show turned around fuck it though I’m fine!
Just read the signs
Just read the signs