3 Am

You’ve got bags under your eyes like I’ve got under mine I guess that
You have not been sleeping it’s a symptom of our time theres just way too much
stimulation too much noise and information and you can’t switch off your head
and your fed up with masturbation please don’t hate yourself for your insomnia
it’s just not healthy
I also lie awake at night and imagine I was wealthy
Or I had a little bit more money so I wasn’t stressed
I could lie on feather pillows, memory foam that would the best
One day things won’t be quite so bad and you will not hate yourself
As much as on thes sleepless nights kept wide yed by your mental health
These panic attacks will fade and stop and you will breath more clearly
You’ll realise you’re not alone and someone loves you dearly
You will find the best in you
Lose the worst bits slowly
There is time still to discover the best in you
I know It can feel so lonely
I know It would help if only
You could sleep tonight
I make lists in my head things like everyone I’ve slept with or the places that
I’ve visited or places that I wished I did
Sometimes I pretend I’m in a tent and it is raining Or I’m in a cabin on a ship
that someone else is sailing
I write songs like this one or another one you might have heard It helps to
think of syllables, rhymes if you can find the words It doesn’t help to go on
emails instagram or Facebook but I usually can’t help myself and have to have
at least one look
I’m kept awake by my regrets and secrets that I’m keeping I’m kept awake by
guilt about the fact that I’m not sleeping
I’m kept awake by scrolling trolling ass holes make me crazy
Kept awake because I spent my day being so lazy
Will I ever sleep again
I can’t even remember
What it felt like when I used to sleep so well
I hope I’m not always lonely
I know it would help if only
I could sleep tonight
One day things won’t be quite so bad and I will not hate myself
As much as on these sleepless nights kept wide eyed by my mental health
These panic attacks will fade and stop and I will breath more clearly
And realise I’m not alone and some one loves me dearly
I will find the best in me
Let me breathe more slowly There is time still to allow myself the rest I need