Build a Bridge and Jump off It

Lonely and restless on the coldest of nights
With these thoughts on my mind that keep pulling me down.
I’m only fooling everyone else
So that everyone else choose their back on me.
So let go of these feelings that I’m keeping inside
Or hold on, cause I’m feeling like I’m barely alive.
Lay back, as this pain takes over me.
Broke down cause my head was spinning out of control
Nineteen years, and I’ve got nothing to show
Were only getting older now.
This pain seems forgotten
But inside I’m rotting
Thinking of all this time
Left to waste then die
The only thing I know for sure
Is I don’t care anymore
And when I’m gone
I hope you have the strength to move on Angry, but I’m told to not complain
Recluse, but I’m better off this way
This is not what I want, but I’ll just bite my tongue
I’m hungry, but I’m too tired to eat
Tired, but I’m too hungry to sleep
Were only getting older now
And it hurts.
Save me cause I’m drowning,
Please give me more time
Cause I can’t keep on counting
It feels like I’m blinded now
As they shut me out
But I’m trying to see
Please make this stop
My pain seems forgotten
But inside I’m rotting
Thinking of all this time.
I wait to die
But I’m not going to know what I’m doing hear
So why can’t you give me a sign
And as I drown now
Swimming in an ocean of fear
My last regret is Never knowing why I’m here.