Hello to Never

goodbye to what if
hello to never
so long to someday too
just dig a hole
and put my coffin under how many times
have i tried to sever?
how long until iў‚¬"ўm through
but if i let go
i know iў‚¬"ўll often wonder
so never run
i can think a way out of it
donў‚¬"ўt pretend to know how
but i know why
try to swim but donў‚¬"ўt sink
come up above it
treading water right now
itў‚¬"ўs do or die
i know better than anyone itў‚¬"ўs true
iў‚¬"ўm getting on but iў‚¬"ўm getting better, too
admit defeat
let down your defenses
why do you have to fight
a losing cause to find the thing youў‚¬"ўre missinў‚¬"ў?
know when youў‚¬"ўre beat and come to your senses
still, iў‚¬"ўm compelled to write
without applause
and though no one will listen
give it up and get away
i shouldnў‚¬"ўt wonder
in a decade or a day
itў‚¬"ўs hard to tell
give it up or get it right
iў‚¬"ўm going under yeah, but not without a fight
itў‚¬"ўs just as well.
i know better than anyone could guess
iў‚¬"ўm getting tired of all this now, i confess
if only my art
could somehow relate
then maybe my life
would then imitate
the things iў‚¬"ўd contrive
and not what i feel
but it wouldnў‚¬"ўt be right
it wouldnў‚¬"ўt be real
donў‚¬"ўt look now
theyў‚¬"ўre coming after you
dig in, though you donў‚¬"ўt know what to do
somethingў‚¬"ўs gonna happen any day
but what i canў‚¬"ўt say