If You Only Knew

If you only knew
we will let it go
when we get tired
then I wouldn’t be able to be here now
If you only knew
that I’m not writing the third letter
and I don’t have more words to say
more things to reveal
more love to tell you
If you only knew
that I’m running but not trembling
If you only knew
that I didn’t get everything you want to say
If you only knew
my love to you but not the appreciation, respect, sympathy, affection,
dedication that are always there
If you only knew
that I don’t know you are much more exhausted than me
that I don’t know how much work you’ve done
that I don’t realize now how less I’ve done
But we are doing our best
and of course
will be
I feel like you know me
though not everything of me
At this exhausted moment
I couldn’t come up with anything that you may want to know
I don’t have an uncle in Hollywood, fingercrossed nor in HK
If you only knew
that I would agree with the word «avuncular»
That’s also an understatement
between you and me
If… and only if