if i do

I don’t know why I get this way
I can’t see past my own mistakes
And I don’t know if I’ll ever change
But if I do, if I do
I think you’ll be the first to know
'Cause you’ve seen through me since long ago
And I doubt I’ll ever let it go
But if I do, if I do
I’ll let you know
You left your jacket at my apartment
Force of habit, mud on the carpet
And thus the ballad of We Never Had It
Knowing what we know and knowing where to go
It’s not what you want to hear
It’s not what I want to say
It might be better to play pretend
But the truth is at the end of the day
I don’t know why I get this way
I can’t see past my own mistakes
And I don’t know if I’ll ever change
But if I do, if I do
I think you’ll be the first to know
'Cause you’ve seen through me since long ago
And I doubt I’ll ever let it go
But if I do, if I do
I’ll let you know
We lost the magic before it started
The hats and rabbits have all departed
So here’s your jacket
I wish we’d had it
Knowing what we know and knowing where to go
It’s not what you want to hear
It’s not what I want to say
It might be better to play pretend
But the truth is at the end of the day
I don’t know why I get this way
I can’t see past my own mistakes
And I don’t know if I’ll ever change
But if I do, if I do
I think you’ll be the first to know
'Cause you’ve seen through me since long ago
And I doubt I’ll ever let it go
But if I do, if I do
I’ll let you know
It’s not what you want to hear
It’s not what I want to say
It might be better to play pretend
But the truth is at the end of the day
I don’t know why I get this way
I can’t see past my own mistakes
And I don’t know if I’ll ever change
But if I do
I don’t know why I get this way
I can’t see past my own mistakes
And I don’t know if I’ll ever change
But if I do, if I do
I think you’ll be the first to know
'Cause you’ve seen through me since long ago
And I doubt I’ll ever let it go
But if I do, if I do
I’ll let you know