Another Gear Uncaught

i curse the string that stole my breath
and just a year ago i nearly burned to death
i try to clear my mind
i try to ignore all the ways this reminds
me of the last time
a handful of pills of so
is all that takes i know
if you pour me a glass of rum
ill crush a cigarette out before I’m done
bright lights choke me
and who are you to make me bleed
I’m fragmenting apart
i hate the way you stare through me
i came to and coght my breath
charcoal on my lips the only memory left
I’m falling down inside
from screams raging through my mind
just promise me this will be the last time