Would Have Killed

And you know what I know
Why would you think to do this to me
A reason so simple
You could never dream the answer
If we’re so different from ourselves
Could I have seen this inner you
And touched its face for ever a brief moment
And standing back, now so detached from you
I realize why you didn’t want me there
I would have killed if just this one time
Time was on our side
And even when we walk away
You would have cared that I tried
And I had so much left to tell you
So many pieces left to place
But now the puzzle fell apart
To just the shadow of your face
I would have killed for the last chance
Would have bled a thousand miles
Through the thorns that line the path
Just to kneel beside you as you were collapsing
And holding both hands
I could say I was still there
It’s killing me
But I’m still here