The Wasteland That Is Me

This temptation has me feeling like I’m losing all control
I’m becoming dependent on the pain inside my skull
It’s this sinking feeling I’ll carry all the way into my grave
This is my human behavior this is not a choice I’ve made
I’m always stuck inside the wasteland that is me
I’ve been here my whole life the wasteland that is me
I end up feeling like I’ve been up for a million days
There’s just no stopping me when I get this inside my brain
It’s like this sinking feeling knowing I’m going awry
I can see my future disintegrating before my eyes
I’m always stuck inside the wasteland that is me
I’ve been here my whole life the wasteland that is me
I begin it again
Then we land in the lower end
And I begin it again
I begin again