Hollow Inside

So burned out and so hollow
Emptiness is all that I feel
So easy to point out the others' mistakes
And so dishonest with myself
Doubts are all that is left in me
They’re growing steadily
Everything is moving
But I seem to be stuck forever
The illusion to be happy just collapesed again
And all the mechanisms I’ve created fail
I am smiling but inside I cry
I am laughing but inside I burst with rage
I wonder why I do the same mistake
Over and over again
Almost sure I’ll do it
I could change everything surrounding me
To build another reality
Too weak to change my desire
Too smart to fall for my own lies
And so I keep consuming
Trying desperately to fill myself