Last Lunch

As soon as I leave
this prison you made
I can feel again
the shape of things
The singing of birds
the blue in the sky
Now I can see
how small you are
Not knowing why or for who
I pushed myself so far
The last time I saw your face I was going away
taking with me what you betrayed
You stopped me and gave me back the lunch for that day
as if that was some kind of comic play
The first thing you thought about was all in that sack
the last and only thing you gave me back
Laughing in tears I drove around and then back home
knowing that for you it was already all gone
I tried and I tried
Believe me I died
so many times.
You want me to obey
but you never defy
your inner voice denied
Now I know what you always knew
your feelings were an illusion
all the way through
The last time I saw your face I was going away
taking with me what you betrayed
You stopped me and gave me back the lunch for that day
as if that was some kind of comic play
The first thing you thought about was all in that sack
the last and only thing you gave me back
Laughing in tears I drove around and then back home
knowing that for you it was already all gone