If You Saw Me Now

I don’t remember getting undressed
And my bed spinning
Left over food from days before
That lamp I broke shattered on the floor
I can’t seem to process
I don’t remember getting undressed
I don’t remember how I got home
And my head is spinning
Left over bottles from a week before
I didn’t drink them but I thought I would
I can’t seem to process
I don’t remember how got I here
If you saw me now
Spiraling out of control
Losing my senses ‘caus I don’t understand
How you lovingly used to hold my hand
If you saw me now
I wondr what you’d think
About this up version of me
If you saw me now
If you saw me now
I don’t remember what you sound like
And my heart is aching
Looking through pictures from when we were young
Everything’s fading but you’re still the sun
And it doesn’t feel right
I don’t remember what you sound like
If you saw me now
Spiraling out of control
Losing my senses ‘cause I don’t understand
How you lovingly used to hold my hand
If you saw me now
I wonder what you’d think
About this up version of me
If you saw me now
If you saw me now