Better Moments

I don’t like to let myself
Get closer than what you just felt
It never really ends that well
And I’m sick of carrying that guilt
Promise I don’t want your help
I’m doing just fine by myself
You should look somewhere else
Cause I’m stuck inside my own hell
And I can feel pain the moment that I wake up and
Im the worst of luck to anyone that I let in
I hate that Im wasting
Every single better moment
And I hate that I’m faced with
Losing everyone I’m closest to
And I know that could mean you
Never wanted you to see that
But I went and wasted
Every single better moment
With you
I’m sick of always fighting it
And I fall asleep with that regret
Feel it underneath my skin
I accept that i get what I get
Made it so damn hard just to let you in
Told myself I never would again
Ive been driving city lines away from my regret
And you could never understand it
I hate that Im wasting
Every single better moment
And I hate that I’m faced with
Losing everyone I’m closest to
And I know that could mean you
Never wanted you to see that
But I went and wasted
Every single better moment
I’m faded
Frustrated
Spinning in my bed, staring up at the ceiling
I hate that Im wasting
Every single better moment
And I hate that I’m faced with
Losing everyone I’m closest to
And I know that could mean you
Never wanted you to see that
But I went and wasted
Every single better moment