Change

Well I let myself down
And I made myself cry
And I let myself go
Like I gave up on life
I was telling myself
I was living a lie
That I didn’t exist
That the world let me die
And I took a step back
Was it really that bad
I forget who I was
I forgot who I am
How did I get this far
How did I get this low
If I change will they care
This won’t work anymore
Was anybody listening?
Did anybody care?
I’ll show them that I’m changing
Will I let them down?
Letting myself down
Should I let them get close
Should I let my guard down
Should I take a step back
Keep my feet on the ground
Am I running from pain
or the things that I fear
I’m surrounded by hate
There is nothing good here
And I took a step back
Was it really that bad
I forget who I was
I forgot who I am
How did I get this far
How did I get this low
If I change will they care
This won’t work anymore
Was anybody listening?
Did anybody care?
I’ll show them that I’m changing
Will I let them down?
Letting myself down