Molyphony

Thinking of the way I felt, walking out of your apartment
Could not have been that far from hell
Not far from where I started
No rush and no relief, no picture of the future
I went to running class
Thought «what the fuck did I do to her?»
Oh my god I’m turning sober, all the drugs I thought I loved
Reminding me of last October, and the break that almost was
I held myself accountable for all of my misgivings
This mountain insurmountable, no hope found by Thanksgiving
How did you know when I left there, I would end up worse
How did you know when I ran scared, I’d walk to my hearse
How did it get this way for me, it’s just so surprising
The weight isn’t off of me, time for some exercising
I tried to make it up, everything that I was feeling
Scary head and scary eyes, can’t word what I am dealing
With everything I put you through
And the words that I have written
You gotta be a god damn fool
To tell me I make you smitten
How did you know when I left there, I would end up worse
How did you know when I ran scared, I’d walk to my hearse
How did it get this way for me, it’s just so surprising
The weight isn’t off of me, time for some exercising