You Must Have Known

You always knew
And you knew again
Tapping furtive texts at 6am
The wartime stratagem
I’ve grown tall on your frail shoulders
Brawling in dark corners
As I fly, you flail and crawl
At my beck and call
I miss the smell of leather
The chant of the bell
The raised and the felled
The snap of our tether
No, a fight’s never fair
We’re just the clueless cavalry
Without the storied glory
Of an epic rivalry
I always knew
You must have known
I gamble spades and hearts
Puff my chest like Bonaparte
The big payoff of this song and dance
Is every chance
And so I shimmy shake and shiver
Wading through the icy river
Yeah it numbs the guilt
I always knew
You must have known