The Way To Nowhere

I tried to hate you,
forget you,
suppress you,
replace you,
understand you
and forgive you
But all in vain
your words should have been meaningless to me but they weren’t
Why do you do this to me?
Providing the most precious moment of my life
And tearing my heart into pieces in one breath
You are probable not wasting one more thought on me While I dissolve in hopes and doubts
But that’s the way it goes, I guess
I would give up everything for you
My pride,
my dignity,
my principles
my home
my life
I knew it 's ruined anyway
You are so far away
And I am bond here
You head for your ancestors
I for my future carrier
You long for freedom
And I for you
Everybody has warned me of this
Has foreseen my misery
But wasn’t it you
Saying nothing happens by chance
So tell me where can I hide
Where shall I go Now that I am a 'lone lorn creature'
I won’t see the truth
I don’t want to believe this
I can’t understand
I just don’t get it right
Is this your revenge
Where I believed it mine?
I don’t want these thoughts any more
Please get them out of my head
I don’t want to be the victim once more
No more sacrifices
Every new disappointments lets your heart grew thicker
But who will ever cut through this cover
I can’t, I won’t face the truth
But eventually I have to Maybe fate never intended
to see me happy in the end