Eighteen

Which one did you fuck harder my best friend or my self esteem
Remember when you got drunk and said you were the only one dumb enough to love
me
I don’t want to live just following your script
The actress is too young and the director is a narcissist
This isn’t normal, this isn’t okay
But I didn’t know any better, so I thought it’d be better to stay
Almost beautiful, the things that you taught me
I think I really loved you, I think you really loved that I was
Eighteen
You bought me beer because you were too old to go to prom with me
I threw up in the bathroom, my friends made memories
And yeah, you looked real cool to a girl still in high school
You don’t have to chase anything that you can fool
This isn’t normal, this isn’t okay
But I didn’t know any better, so I thought it’d be better to stay
Almost beautiful, the things that you taught me
I think I really loved you, I think you really loved that I was
Eighteen
I see you out with younger versions of me
While I’m trying to find who I used to be
I’m terrified that you and I will always be chasing eighteen
This isn’t normal, this isn’t okay
But I didn’t know any better, so I thought it’d be better to stay
Almost beautiful, the things that you taught me
I think I really loved you, I think you really loved that I was
Eighteen