20 Years

I saw your face
From the window of my car
Windshield wipers swept away
Fallen leaves wet in the rain
I froze like 20 years ago
When I stood still and stared
At your family van
Leaving the town
I was young and helpless then
Alone in the crowd
Just a kid
Who had no way out
I forgot what love is long ago
Maybe I never would’ve known
If we hadn’t met
Forgot how crazy love can be
About a rapid heartbeat
When you are not yourself
What it’s like to feel chest pain
To look feverish every day
And have sleepless nights
Now I’m callous, dead inside
Days of sorrow
Became commonplace
I’m not that kid anymore