I Always Told You

I always told you not to bleed
but here I am with lacerations right above my knobby knees
I never said to ask the same of me
This is how I cope with losing what I need
You
don’t know
what
you do
I always told you not to smoke
but now I think the red and whites are growing cancer in my throat
Since you left I’ve started to grow old
You
don’t know
what
you do
I’m sorry that I’m doing
everything I told you not to do
If I had a choice I swear I’d choose not to
If I had a choice I’d choose not to
But I never had a choice in losing you
And I was reciting wedding vows
but life’s a foreign language to me now
Every line you fucked up in my head
is another naked stranger in your bed
If I had a choice I’d choose not to
But I never had a choice in losing you