I am an Ocean

i can’t even say when it began
that i have met the great sadness
and why it did never leave
declared my heart ain’t mine alone
so i forgot where i belong
as if i ever knew
ain’t there any way to get ahead
i don’t know all the ways out
tell me, tell me
and even know, i can’t bail out
the doubts did steal all the chances
i am an ocean
of flaws and needs i cannot name
all the heartache is here
save me, save me
the struggle for life is fought inside
it’s not about wrong or right
when you can’t take sides
and the colours all faded to grey
you feel this is everlasting
again an again
it took a while to understand
i get up and will tumble again
this might be a part of what i am
but there’s a chance in this spiral i’m in
when i tumble i will get up again
when i’m able to strengthen my steps
i might break the habit which accepts
that this is everything i am
this ain’t everything i am
all the flaws and need i cannot name
and the heartache is here
save me, save me
even not now, i will bail out
the doubts might steal
all the chances
i am an ocean