Fire Eater

I don’t remember the heat
Or the smell of fuel or being afraid
Just the thrill of living through it
Like letting a tiger lick my bared white throat
After that I was hooked
I learned how to extinguish the flame
And keep it lit inside me
Made my body welcome the play of the torch
Across my skin
I opened and let it in
I opened and let it in
I opened and let it in
Opened and let it in
Nothing I’d ever tried before
Could satisfy my insatiable desire for more
My heart nearly stopped
The ambulance sang my name more times than once
I needed danger’s rush
Adrenaline, to light me up
That fight or flight
All dancing in my blood and on my tongue like medicine
I opened and let it in
I opened and let it in
I opened and let it in
Opened and let it in
Burn away clean
Flicker and gleam
The light and the heat
Within me, consuming
So sweet is this thing
Licking my fingers
And whispering
«Open to me»
Ever since I first lowered
The blazing torch between my teeth
It takes sriracha poured on everything I eat
To make it hot enough for me
It’s all I need, my love, my food and drink
Religion and my drug
The razor and glass, my trouble
The bottle, the needle, and spoon never sizzled so
Sweet is this thing (Sweet is this thing, I opened and let it in,
I opened and let it in)
Licking my fingers (I opened and let it in, Opened and let it in,
I opened and let it in)
And whispering (I opened and let it in, I opened and let it in)
«Open to me» (I opened and let it in, Opened and let it in)
So sweet is this thing
Licking my fingers
And whispering
«Open to me»