The Blessing / The Curse

Tie the tourniquet tight
Bathe my eyes in angel light
I never believed a word I said was true
I was abusing language to have power over you
And I know I’m the devil, I know I’m a mess
But I’m not a broken record, I learn my lessons fast
Push that feeling down
You’ll scare them all off if you let it out
But I don’t want to not have anything to say
Nothing in my body’s telling me this is okay
So I will find the part of you that I can love
My blessing and my curse, I am what you are made of
She painted me white
Changed my bandages and stayed the night
And I am here to learn all that she has to teach
I will swim towards her lighthouse, always just out of reach
After all I wanted nothing if not love
The blessing and the curse I can’t stop dreaming of