Whose Trophy?

I’m sorry that I’m not what you expected
Need I ignore you now
I can’t live facing these regrets
I won’t live without them
How will things turn out
You threw it all away
Is that how you see things
I guess we live through different eyes
We see through different pasts
I won’t be what you want me to be
Should I try a little less
Just to suffer all the more
Is this what you want from me Are you ashamed of me Could this hurt any more
This may be the most important thing I’ll ever say
But if it’s all the same
I’ll bide my words and wait for better ones to take
their place
And this I beg of you
Please don’t think out loud
And keep your life to yourself
I’m not the one to volunteer
To suffocate
Nothing ever works out
Nothing, never…