On a Rope

Where
Where do I go from here
Everything seems fine
A certain path set in my mind
And now
Now that I’m on my own
I’ll call you from the telephone
Everything seems less defined
I was free and I was reckless
Somehow it all felt worth it
Always saying I was worthless
Took my day away and cursed it
I was bored and misdirected
Young enough to know what I did
Looking forwards, walking backwards
No conscience to help me make sense
Mislead youth without a sentence
Pushing forwards, looking backwards
So how
How do you like me now
Everything you want me to be
Is just a distant memory
So far away
How do I disconnect
What can I wreck next
Say it under my breath
Lower and Slower
I was free and I was wreckless
Somehow it all felt worth it
Always saying I was worthless
Took my day away and cursed it
I was bored and misdirected
Young enough to know what I did
Looking forwards, walking backwards
No conscience to help me make sense
Mislead youth without a sentence
Pushing forwards, looking backwards
I wasn’t ready for anything
Thought I was free but it wasn’t me
In reverie and unravelling
I think I’m getting sick of feeling numb
And dumb and tired
In reverie and unravelling
I think I’m getting sick of feeling numb
And dumb and tired
Am I on a rope
Tied down to something else
Times not gone but It’s going
Now that I’m on my own
Worrying’s for the old
But I’m concerned with something else
Keeping my eyes sore
So I look ok in yours
Where was I last year
So far away from here
Please keep the porch lights on
Keep the porch lights on