New Halloween

Somehow it’s already been a year
Embracing all diversions to make this feeling disappear
Now I just feel you everywhere
It coincides with the guilt of knowing that I wasn’t there
I was told that you wouldn’t have known
Told myself I was where you’d want me to be
(But it’s not that easy)
I tried to be your light
Did my best to shine
Nothing I do feels right
As I went out all the time
How has it already been a year?
I skip over songs, because they’re too hard to hear
Like track two on Benji or «What Sarah Said»
They just hit too close when I’m already in my head
I was told you were half asleep
Told myself you would be proud of me
(But it’s not that easy)
I tried to be your light
Did my best to shine
Nothing I do feels right
As I went out all the time
Somehow it’s already been a year
You keep finding new ways to make yourself reappear
I hope you never leave me be
I haven’t found that courage to listen to your last message to me